holidayyyyyyy~ =)

no wait...tomorrow's my last day actually til i can officially say bye-bye to my books but WTH? Tomorrow acc p3! hehe MCQs only ma...but HEY AcC is hard yo~ =( so yeahhhh....anyway...i'm in the holiday mood now and i cant wait to have fun!! =D
The worst thing is me being sick just right after exam -.-" how fun can this get right? L-O-L fun? nah-uh~
sore throat pan si and now kinda like having runny nose TT
God pls make me feel better...plss.. ^^
Haven't seen love~ for a few days now..and i miss him alot as usual..^^ just waiting for exam period to be officially over.. =) no more stressing well at least until the results are about to come out..HAHA =D
gonna live life to the fullest till then..
hmmm...thinking of murtabak-ing with kai they all =)
<3

random anger

Feeling numb..brain stopped, heart stopped...my world just stopped.. =/ my head cant stop spinning..
Wonder why i feel NOT happy...hmm...
Saw pictures of people i have not seen for quite some time..seeing them happy makes me feel happy at the same time sad..
I feel very insecure and lost recently..been thinking alot too...wonder if i should just ignore those feelings or look for the reason..There must be a reason and a solution to it, just that i haven't realized it yet..wonder when will i stop thinking bout random stuffs..
I feel Greedy almost every single day of my life..is this bad?this questions keep running through my head
I don't like the way some people treat me and also the way i treat them..it's killing me to think that some of them are really fake..WTF?i hate it..

Next exams on thurs --> Acc p1.. GOD PLEASE HELP ME! =)

counting down to 2wks ^^V

10 things that will really make me very happy right now =)

1. to see love~ and have him with me the whole time ^^
2. 'exam month' over = no mor A levels -.- (reality check: 2 mor weeks til it's officially ovaaa)
3. tons of movies that i'd lke to watch here beside me =)
4. going to a party =)
4. $$ to spend =D
5. getting a new phone
6. that LV i love so much ^^
7. exercising (which i definitely wanna do =( miss doing sports)
8. love~ singing 'wei qiang' to me <3 <3
9. facial + massage!

finally~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

10. for the time to fly faster so that i can accomplish all my above activities and not worrying i haven't finish studying which i really have not and waste precious time blogging....

awwww~ i love myself for being smart but not applying it properly towards studies =D hehe

ps: love~ thnks for eveything..i love u sweetie~ <3

EXAM -.-

Been quite long since i last posted...sorry bloggie..i apologize =D

Basically been really crappy since the last week as this is what we called the 'EXAM MONTH' -.- pffft~ my sister started her exam later then i did by a week n she's done with her last paper today n guessss what??? i'm having my next paper next thursday -.-" pffft! really unfair...i still have like a long way to go..till the 19th of nov =( 3 mor GEO papers..3 mor ACC left and 2 business...
GOD please help me get through this.. amen
Had business p1 n accountings p2 yesterday...business was okay =) but acc was piece of crap... =( cant do moz of it so yeahhh really GG...anyway...juz hpe that i'll get through this moody and stressful exam period..

ps: love~ i can't wait to see you..hug you.. <3

fridaay~

woke up kinda late today =) got nothing else better to do so decided to blog..i'm kinda excited bout tonight's game and i wish GOLD UNITED HARDWARE all the best!! =)
i have nothing to do at the moment or can i say don't feel like doing anything..just waiting for the time to pass.. =D
Guess i'm just too lazy for anything and this few days alot of unexpected things happened and this is making me really happy..haha =) Wish myself the best n wish my friends the best too! <3 style="font-weight: bold;" size="5"> GOOD LUCK to Gold United Hardware especially to love~ <3

wonderfull friends =)

I'm bored...what to do?what to do? -.- yeahhhh end up blogging... =)
I think my blog is very simple..hmm..dull but i love my blog...even though it's simple and i don't think i intend to change it anytime soon...hehe =D
Currently listening to 2 songs...

'亲爱的' - Wilber
'有何不可' - Vae

i just can't stop listening to them.. <3
School today was the usual..nothing special nothing to blab about...in the afternoon, went badminton with friends and it was a blast fun! although i'm quite tired but still had a great time..n oh oh oh........

I have wonderfull friends~!! =DD

currently missing someone badly <3 and i can't wait til Gladys my mayonaise is back...haha i can't wait to spend time with her... super super love spending time with her, yin and leng =) COME back soon gladyss =) n safe trip back~
I now finally have nothing more to say...lol
will be back soon........ ^^

p.s : can't wait for the next meeting =)

smillleee

Been happy been sad been in alot of moods =) end result still happy =)
I've learnt to stay calm and smile no matter how bad things are..it's actually a very good mood therapy..i mean smiling..HaHa =D
I'm sitting in front of the lappie looking really bored and what the heck nothing to do so decided to blog.. lol~ It's been awhile since i dropped something here...so here goes...
Started school today and got some exam papers back,as usual failed ACCOUNTINGS badly (Y) hooray jan~ -.- hahaha other papers not back yet...so still hoping for the best? =) moving on...
HeyD they all came to my house yesterday so i met a few new people and i finally really believe "Do not judge a book by its cover" as those people do not look like what they seem..haha this sentence sounded weird...but what i meant was..they looked cool but when you get to know them they're totally opposites haha =) FUN bunch =)
Other than that..last night was U-18 basketball tourney finals and summer stars and 88 trading played a very great game...it's very very exciting and i had so much fun! Congrats to the winning team summer stars and also to their Honorable opponents 88 Trading...you guys ENTERTAINED us much much =))

efforts nt enough

so yeahh haven't been blogging recently...been really busy... =) anyway...AS results are out n i didn't do as gud as was expected to..so what does dis mean?? -.-"" gotta work hard lo jan...SIGHS

moving on....tml last day of exam..which i know i'll fail cos it's acc..GOD y do they invent account?it's killing me bad... =(

BUT..there's always a BUT =DDD

i cant wait to watch ball and party and enjoy the last of a little holiday before Alevels =)) i'm so looking forward to pass tml morning :D :D

and thnks to heyD =) i've nearly forgotten what playing netball means to me...n i can't wait to play netball again with my girls <3 so end of the day same all sentence... HOPE FOR THE BEST =)

......................... ><..............................

Fcuk u!! told myself not to think about it..told myself you're just a stubborn person..but end up hurting myself bad again.. -.-

whyy??

stupid cow u~ =(
u nearly spoiled my mood the whole day yesterday..i was swearing my head off about u alone in the toilet..you made me cry again which i swore i'll never cry because of you but i did AGAIN..
What the hell is wrong with you?loooking at YOU makes me wanna SLAP you so badly..

ANYWAY~ geo test again tml...sucks deep deep~ -.- but i'm looking forward again to eating dianA's custard fruit tart~mmmm ^^ hehe n enjoying SERIOUSLY d last of the weekend before QUALIFYING exam next week~ i'm so not ready for exams but i'll try my very best~ HOPE FOR THE BEST =)
pls jan motivate yourself and study hard~! it'll be over soon ;D

funny shit

Michelle Chong just sent me a link and i couldn't stop laughing!! HAHAHa =)
Here's the link:

http://catatonicinmyhead.files.wordpress.com/2009/07/twilight.gif

Gosh i seriously couldn't stop laughing...so okay..got home from school early as PS in the afternoon =D feeling tired ALSO LAZY... -.- anyway looking forward to weekend AGAIN! HAHA always like that...i told myself i would start studying after kai's party but hell no..LOL read a little for short tests only so yea....imma going to study FROM NEXT MONDAY ONWARDS~ WOOOO~ hahahha =))
currently listening to Taylor Swift's fearless (Y) i LOVE LOVE LOVE!!! n also hey stephen by taylor too... very nice! ciao babies~ =)

ps: miss dianA...i dn lke lora..dn lke at all...HAHAHHA =D

21st.07.09

21st today and i thought i should drop something here.. =)
i love u hung! i love you a lot..we might quarrel but at the end of the day, i thank god i have you and you're mine <3
Just finish class at 2, went home drank juice and ate bread..so kelian also no lunch for me..haha okay~cut the crap..i ate Roti John in school just now so yeahh...i am bored to the max, i'm lazy to do some reading even though exams are near = JAN IS PLAIN LAZY!

Alot of things happened this past few days..alot to mention alot to think about..but like i say..when one thing is going the right way, the other is going the wrong way.. =) i now hope that my friend will be alright and i hope he'll be smiling again sometime soon..Please stay strong! We'll always be supporting you! Jia you!

Thank you god for helping in alot of things..

I'm very happy for you my dear girl~ you finally found someone you love and loves you too..i sincerely wish you both the best of luck and all the best! =) <3 <3 mwakss!

so back to school...hmm...other than PS which i enjoy alot..talking crap and gossipping with my DianA ;D and d pai kia ah kit..but can't see momo so often =( the rest of the class bores me... -.- i know i'm not suppose to be like that at this time but LAZYYYYYYYYY

imma go slpppp~ i tink =D

A msg to God

Dear god~
Why turned out this way?
WHY WHY WHY?

You made a pair then you let the other pair down..We celebrate the arrival of a baby and someone will be grieving bout a death of someone.. It's like there's no happy ending for both sides..We achieve something and you take something away from us..why? i was so happy you made them fall in love with each other thus making a beginning of a story but on the other hand? you gave the other pair a conclusion when they haven't even started the story.
Please help..i have faith in you, other than turning to you i don't know what should i do..Whenever i'm happy i turn to you to thank you and when i'm in trouble i turn to you again to ask for your help and now i'm asking you to help...HElP my friends..Please don't let me down.. i do hope that everything will be back on track soon..

ps: i love u so much dear boy~ i want to wish you all the best and you know i'll always be here for you..I want you to have the same energy you always have and carry that signature smile of yours =D once again <3!

Also, to the beloved michelle chu! I just got to know you and you're already leaving..but even though you're leaving i just wanna tel you that i'm happy i've met you and study well girl~! Don't think too much..Even if we're not with you, you face any problem, we are always willing to help you out. All the best.. =) btw bandar is not far ;))

<3 all

debate =)

I'm very tired today..woke up with a swollen eye.. -.- LOl anyway..i'm listening to big bang & 2NE1 - Lollipop, this is making me really happy..but still i'm very sleepy...guess after this imma gonna go sleeeeeep~ ^-^
HAPPY BIRTHDAY to his majesty tomorrow =) no school for me...yay~public hol! (A) but gotta wake up and study Geo...zzzzz~
I got a debate this morning. At first, i was really nervous and lemon kept disrupting my focus haha =D but as time pass, i really did enjoy debating!And everything turned out really well~! i won! thnks partners ;D Gonna enjoy an interesting weekend this week and i wanna have fun! i wanna make full use of this weekend...Qualifying is next month =(
GOD PLS HELP JAN!
Wish me all the best n all the best to my love oness too <3

ps. You know i'll be with you girl..Do what you think is best n say what you think is right..There won't be another you&him so hold onto the chance you have.. LOVE you LOVE him..yeahyeah i'm greedy =PP

='(

I have not been sleeping well since last night..no wait~i have NOT slept at all to be precise..It's a freaking holiday and i am more tired than i am, back in school..-.-" If it's from all those partying,i wouldn't mind at all but NO~~~~~ it's from BOREDOM which caused SLEEP-LESS nights which then caused BAD-MOOD which then results to scolding and fighting between people -.-
I scolded someone this morning..i screamed at the top of my voice and then break down into tears.
I went up to hit her..but i manage to only push her head (lucky you) -.-
I need sleep, i need rest, but most of all i need you <3
okay i got all mad this morning because of alot of things...yesterday, today...not a very good day for me...SIGHSS~!
I do HOPE/PRAY everything will go on smoothly starting from tomorrow onwards.. please....i NEED to be alright!! i can't hide my feelings anymore..i might burst like today so God please help me.. =(

another silly tme

When i feel i don't have anyone to turn to..i turn to you bloggie..you're the closest thing i get to a good listener..
Ever felt like you just needed to cry even though you know how silly the matter is?
I felt like that just now..i didn't know what to do, i just knew i needed to cry..
I felt like my heart sank to the bottom of the ocean..
Why do you have to make me feel this way?
What did i do to deserve a whole day of moodiness?
What makes your friends think that there might actually be a future tense?
What makes you so weak that you can only say not to cause you any trouble?
Ever heard of 'action speaks louder than words' ?
Fcuk tenses~
This is not the first time and i hope this WILL be the last..i don't know how much tears i can let you have but i'm sure the next time i wont let you get off so easily
I may not be me now but i WILL be ME again soon cos i have a bunch of good friends that i care alot and care for me alot..With this i can let you know that you've just lost..
I have now the person i love very very much and you and me know that we cannot change the present.
stay strong jan~

谢谢你一路以来的支持！我会继续努力的.. =) for a friend <3
THANK YOU those that knew

mistake

There's a million reason for mistakes to happen but there's always time to make it right. I took the step to make things right but things don't always go the way you wanted it to so.....here i swear, if you hurt him, I'll make you pay for what you did. Don't ever ever let me catch you doing something you shouldn't be doing!

When you're alone
And life is making you lonely,
You can always go downtown
When you've got worries,
All the noise and the hurry
Seems to help, I know, downtown

Just listen to the music of the traffic in the city
Linger on the sidewalk where the neon signs are pretty
How can you lose?

The lights are much brighter there
You can forget all your troubles, forget all your cares and go
Downtown, things'll be great when you're
Downtown, no finer place for sure,
Downtown, everything's waiting for you
(Downtown)

Don't hang around
And let your problems surround you
There are movie shows downtown
Maybe you know
Some little places to go to
Where they never close downtown

Just listen to the rhythm of a gentle bossanova
You'll be dancing with 'em too before the night is over
Happy again

The lights are much brighter there
You can forget all your troubles, forget all your cares and go
Downtown where all the lights are bright,
Downtown, waiting for you tonight,
Downtown, you're gonna be alright now

And you may find somebody kind to help and understand you
Someone who is just like you and needs a gentle hand to
Guide them along

So, maybe I'll see you there
We can forget all our troubles, forget all our cares and go
Downtown, things'll be great when you're
Downtown, don't wait a minute more,
Downtown, everything's waiting for you

goodbye

I can honestly say,
You've been on my mind since I woke up today
I look at your photograph all the time
These memories come back to life
And I don't mind

I remember when we kissed
I still feel it on my lips
The time that you danced with me
With no music playin'
I remember the simple things
I remember till I cry
But the one thing I wish I'd forget
The memory I wanna forget
Is goodbye

I woke up this morning and played our song
And through my tears I sang along
I picked up the phone and then put it down
cause I know I'm wasting my time
And I don't mind

I remember when we kissed
I still feel it on my lips
The time that you danced with me
With no music playing
I remember those simple things
I remember till I cry
But the one thing I wish I'd forget
The memory I wanna forget

Suddenly my cell phone's blowing up with your ringtone
I hesitate but answer it any way
You sound so alone
And I'm surprised to hear you say

You remember when we kissed
You still feel it on your lips
The time that you danced with me
With no music playing

You remember those simple things
We talked till we cried
You said that your biggest regret
The one thing you wish I'd forget
Is saying goodbye

For a friend:
i know you're going through a lot now and i can understand how you feel..after all, you two have been together for so long now and when he suddenly mention things like that, if it's me, i will not be able to take it as well.. =( but we live for one reason and that's for ourselves. HE will just be a part of your life so there's no need for you to feel like a failure without him cause girl, you're stronger than that! i know~ Good luck for everything and HOPE FOR THE BEST! my motto and it helps ;) I'll be there for you whenever =)

2009

First post for a new year =)
it's been ages since i blogged so ya..
it's still CNY now and after a week's leave, i'm back to school again.. =( so sad~ anyway..school's the same in this new year, nth has changed much..still as bored as ever LOl
i can't wait till weekends come but weekdays please stay far far away from me..HEHE =P
one thing that make me really happy was the gift momo gave me! THANKS mo!!! love it~ =)
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