It's been awhile..a very long while since i've been in here.. :) took too many tears to get this far but i'm hanging on.
I can't wait to finish my attachment period..Three more months to go and another whole year to finish ITB and after that getting out of here! A whole new world, a whole new bunch of people, a whole new environment and hopefully a whole new me!
I'm really better now and i have definitely stopped all my silly 'activities' This past year have been the worst i can say but regardless i'm still here breathing :) That's good right?
I can never actually answer anyone properly when being asked these questions..
" How are you doing so far?"
" Everything good? "
...and etc
so does this mean i'm not okay still?
Recently, I've been listening to songs that reminded me about a lot of things. Those songs that we used to love or songs that i love but never really paid attention to the lyrics.. They all seemed so clear to me now.
Still praying that you have smooth days and everything is going on well and i never once missed not asking god to keep you safe
Miss telling someone how my day went :) ..saying i love yous and i miss yous randomly! How about when you hear something funny and you wanna tell your special someone first..yeahh! i miss having that special someone
Like telling him how much pain i am in right now even though they can't help you much but just by being there, you can't really feel the pain anymore..
How about when you are very cold on a rainy day, all you can think of is lying in his arms and falling asleep together
Or when he is really focused on something, you go to him and whisper in his ears " you look cute and i love you" that moment when he stop what he's doing and look at you with that smile you will never ever get tired of and replied " I love you too baby"
and also the little fights about who should lock the door today and no matter who did it when you get on bed, the hugs make up for everything.
the soft little kisses on foreheads, the warm feeling of holding hands and that very moment you know someone's always there for you
:)
p.s. I Love You
